Purgatory

Over and done with, toasty and sunlit
A human’s funeral, cute. Boasting a son of a bitch!
Lonely with funds, it’s so ugly with voids
The walls I built to keep the sadness out also kept out the joy
I also could not avoid always fearfully caught in a pull
It swallows me whole and tears just water my soul
Got her and didn’t bother, father a wrecking spree
Look at my legacy; nothing ends pleasantly.
It’s like I’m peasantry all by my own accord.
People pre-judged and hated me; I once was so adored
It was time I evolved from being bored and cursed
So I went and changed but it was for the worst.
Now it’s corpse in hearse.
Thought I was less than human cause I was ugly?
I was smarter than all those whores and jerks!
Planned out my future, I think about it and puke
Cause when the future came I just became a stupid lame
Who’s used to games…

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Been a few days since I been dead
I wasn’t better off living instead
Nobody even came to visit at my sick bed
In Purgatory, surely waiting to be lifted
But I might be hell bound with the skinheads
Murderers, drug dealers and the pimp men
A scary cemetary’s where I’m listed
In Purgatory, surely waiting to be lifted!

A pushover; non-assertive when teeth are sunken
Like the time that cops arrested me and beat me for nothing
And all I have to show for myself is this one stupid song
And all of those other songs nobody ever puts on
The guilt I feel for people; I’m confessing it
They didn’t deserve to be hurt someone who’s worth less than them
It fucking sucked pursuing my career poorly
Cause I never had a backer to pay my dues for me
I got lonely without homies and nobody’d hold me
My world’s phony and mopy. Never home mostly
Rolling drugs in rollies, roam free, hoping to cope with my own niche
Can’t overcome it
And tell the love of my life I’ve been full of regret ever since I left her
I wonder what they say (yeah). Do they say I was cool?
I was nice? Or do they not even remember?

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