Vo.Caliber-Suicide Contingency Plan

Suicide Contingency Plan

I don’t dream anymore…
I don’t dream anymore…
I don’t dream anymore…
Cause I died in a nightmare from light years before

It's like I wake up and I feel a sharp pain in my stomach
I don't know what pain, check the blood stains I got from it
Don't even know what I did so I just go to my fridge
And there's nothing I want to eat so now I know buy bread for next time
.... But for now I take pills because my head hurts,
And now I got to pay bills....
I'm about six months overdue on my visa
I know I shouldn't have gotten the extra cheese up on my pizza last night
Or I mean the night before, whatever...
My head throbs; I just want to get a knife and sever it off
My nose runs, I think I'm getting a cough
I'm sick of losing money on betting; I'm sweating; pissed off
The whole world is crumbling around me
But I'm the only one affected everyone else going on
But I'm left behind, I just step aside
The horrors that I've witnessed have wrecked my eyes

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And I realize what my fate is
This is the life I've been given, it's tough to take it
My nightmares are lucid dreams; that's the truth I play with
And if I don't get into Heaven, I'll shoot my way in!
I drink a pound of gasoline while in the lab tonight
My molded corpse will be a sacrifice for the rats and mice
Won’t be coming back to life since my throat's in greases
So I light a cigarette in hopes that I blow to pieces

I'm alone in this fight, I'm groaning with might
I'm prone to dislike all these foes in my life!
It's raining and striking my block with damn lightning
My life's a mess like Michael J Fox's handwriting
My fam's fighting, not liking me; they stay hating
Should I slit my wrist with the same razor as this AIDS patient?
That'll ensure death as well as my place in hell
As opposed to here? Damnit, I'll embrace it well
But then again, I can pop some Excedrin
Go out and find a job and then I'll be well again & then I'll pay the rent
And I'll be okay to spend some extra dollars here and there
For some clothes for me to wear
But then I envision my suicide and how it would be
Yeah, I know I'm a stupid guy, a coward, a creep
For taking this gift from God that we call life
And throwing it all away, but I say it's all right

I don’t dream anymore…
I don’t dream anymore…
I don’t dream anymore…
Cause I died in a nightmare from light years before