Stress Junkie

I been told to live it and let go
But I feel impending doom like I'm minutes from death row
What if I can never overcome what's bogging me down?
And keep screwing things up that just ought to be sound
What I'm supposed to be good at; I've become deficient in
Look up the word loser; my name's the synonym
Need to lose my inhibitions like some of these little kids
As far as intuition, that's something I'm bitter with
Never used to be that way, I'm stupid with bad taste
Confusion mixed with boozing got me puking for mad days
Refusing to have grace and God? I get him mad
What if what I lost is all that I was ever meant to have?
Slaving unbearably and my funds are meager
Wake up anxious every morning; it's really scaring me
Overcome with seizures, I should go to therapy
But talking to myself while taking drugs is cheaper

When it rains, it's pouring; I can hardly see
The past and present ain't kicking, the future looks even more grim
Keeping some foreign tools to cut out an artery
Because being in a good mood is hard for me!
Nothing's left in my life but a bunch of empty voids
Devil sent me poison; he's committing some thievery
Cause my soul is stolen, hope is broken off equally
I share something in common with God; no one believes in me!
Trials and tribulations, I'm trying to rid the hating
By lying in situations that's grimy like fungus
Stay kind and let them ride, I'm kind of desensitized
Bad things are entertaining now, I wonder what's next!

I don’t sleep; I'm fighting rest a lot
And I'm paranoid like I'm just hiding techs and glocks
I'm vexed with pot and always writing text in blocks
Smoking a joint, while drinking and driving next to cops!
I go on these ventures aware that some will hurt me
Yielding no benefit like a nun with herpes
These crumbs are jerky; I'm starting to like it
I wont crumble under pressure like cookies in a vice grip
Luck wants to mess with me; I'm embracing it now, taking a bow
Where is Waldo with my face in the crowd of people trying to kill me
I see them all plotting a thousand to one odds against me?
No problem!